My Post-Breakup Healing Became a LinkedIn Rivalry

Listen, I’d love to say I’m mature. That I heal from breakups by journaling, meditating, and becoming “that girl” who posts about her healing era on Instagram. But no. Instead, I cyberstalk my ex on LinkedIn like a corporate assassin on a mission.

Because, let’s be honest: winning the breakup is the real endgame.

And while some people “win” by looking hotter, moving on first, or posting thirst traps (respectfully, queen) - I? I win in the free market.

That’s right. My breakup didn’t just leave me emotionally bruised—it turned my LinkedIn notifications into a battleground. And at this point, it’s less about feelings and more about career revenge.

Phase 1: The Ghosting and the Aftermath

It all started when my ex, whom we’ll call Ben, the Betrayer, ghosted me after what I thought was an emotionally deep, life-changing situationship (read: three months of sharing Spotify playlists and pretending we’d “see where it goes”).

Hey we had had two real dates, one of which was him begging to take me to my fave restaurant/bar - he actually cared.

One day, we were trauma-bonding over childhood insecurities. The next? He evaporated like a bad crypto investment.

I did what any sane, emotionally evolved person would do - I blocked him on Instagram, muted him on Twitter, and even avoided my own Venmo feed (because I refused to see him paying for overpriced oat milk lattes).

I was healing.

Or so I thought.

Phase 2: The Accidental LinkedIn Encounter

Then, it happened. A few weeks later, I innocently logged into LinkedIn, just trying to be a girlboss in peace - and there he was.

“Ben started a new position at 🚀TechBroCorp as a Senior Something-Or-Other.”

And that’s when I realized: I wasn’t just heartbroken - I was professionally threatened.

Because not only had this man ghosted me, but now? He was out here thriving. Announcing job promotions like a CEO of Emotional Unavailability. And worse? People were congratulating him.

No. Absolutely not.

Phase 3: The LinkedIn Stalking Begins

Hey, the problem wasn't just that he was thriving. It was that he had semi-changed professions from the boring corp-life to entrepreneurship life I had been proud of for years - he had even made fun of it at one point. This was my thing. I had to win in it.

I’ll admit it: I spiraled.

I suddenly needed to know everything:

1. How many mutual connections did we still have?
2. Was he networking with my former boss?
3. Was he posting thought leadership pieces like some kind of career influencer?

(He was. They were cringe. I hate that he had engagement.)

Naturally, I went into damage control mode. I updated my LinkedIn profile, made my own career moves look impressive, and—out of sheer spite—took a real and hard online course, just to slap a new certification onto my profile.

If Ben was thriving, I was going to THRIVE HARDER.

Phase 4: The Business Rivalry Develops

Soon, the obsession became less about the breakup and more about the competition.

1. He posted about “mentorship”? I posted about leadership.
2. He listed a new skill? I suddenly had five.
3. He had “great professional connections”? I connected with his connections out of spite.

Checkmate.

I knew I had officially lost my mind when I saw his post about a keynote speech he was giving - and my first thought was, I need to get booked for a panel.

At this point, my heartbreak had turned into a corporate grudge match.

Phase 5: The Reality Check (aka My Therapist Intervenes)

Eventually, I confessed my unhinged LinkedIn stalking to my therapist. Her response?

"So… instead of dealing with your emotions, you turned your breakup into a capitalism-fueled career war?"

…yes? And???

But as much as I hate to admit it, she had a point. This wasn’t about Ben anymore. This was about me needing external validation to prove I was “winning” something that didn’t even matter.

Phase 6: The LinkedIn Truce (Or, I Gave Up Trying to Out-Thrive Him)

One day, after another rage-scroll through his profile, it happened - I saw him in a live video, making a career inspo video. And it hit me - I probably want to fill an emotional void by excelling in my career, and want to have a real relationship again. I don't really want to outshine him or get him back.

I sat back and thought:

Wait. Do I even care about this anymore?

And honestly? I didn’t.

So, I did something radical:

I turned off LinkedIn notifications and focused on my own damn career.

Final Thoughts: The Real Lesson Here

Did I waste an embarrassing amount of time competing with a man who ghosted me? Yes. Did I let my heartbreak fuel a LinkedIn obsession that benefited absolutely no one but my engagement metrics? Also yes. Did I choose fake ex-stalking in favor of trying to find real love? Also, also yes.

But, in the end? I realized something important:

The best way to “win” a breakup isn’t through career flexes - it’s through actually moving the hell on.

(Besides, we all know he's probably still using an outdated résumé template from 2017. Loser. 😉)

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